Friday, July 15, 2022

Open Letter *

 I went to the words because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and rock out all the marrow of my life! to put to rest all that was not life and when I come to die, discover that I had lived.. not with them or through them but on my accord on my own free will. I woke up each and everyday and decided what my life would and wouldn't look like. 

That is why I went back to my words: because my words have always been more powerful than me. sometimes leading me on adventures I hadn't yet to seek, and sometimes giving me the courage to accept the changes to the things drowning me, and as the prophet as said; "The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain".

So choose to live, bathe and breathe in that sorrow. Use your words. pick up that paint brush, go to your closet and design your weeks worth of outfits, play those video games - Live life on your terms, but don't live it to satisfy others. This is your now. 


xoxo ,

A ❤

Thursday, July 14, 2022

~Morning Ritual For Your Higher Self:









*Upon waking - stand or sit on a chair (preferably in sunlight) - with your feet firmly on the floor.             * Close your eyes and breathe deeply and rhythmically                                                                                          *Now imagine roots, like tree roots, growing down through the soles of your feet and into the earth below                                                                                                                                                                                 *Imagine the roots reaching deep, deep, deep into the earth's glowing core and anchoring you safely to HER.                                                                                                                                                                                   *Feel the energy flowing from you, to the Earth and back again, nourishing you both, as you exchange love and support.                                                                                                                                                             *When you feel complete, open your eyes and continue with your day.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Namaste,                                                                                                                                  Averi ❤ 

                 




 







Monday, July 11, 2022

Open Letter to Anonymous

       ⚸◈☀  Open Letter to Anonymous ☀◆⚸


   The people who do not want to be in our lives go, we have to stand within the voids and the space they left, and we have to rebuild there. 

That is where the heart mends. That is where the scars heal. And that is something you give yourself. No one else is going to do it for you. No one else is capable! 

Please, if you are waiting for closure to move on, I hope you give yourself permission to just let go. I hope you give yourself permission to let something end in the middle of a chapter. I hope you give yourself permission to connect with the fact that no closure is closure. That a half-ending is still an ending. 

That someone not being able to choose you anymore just means that they were not meant to hold your heart. You can add meaning to that, you can dress it up, or dress it down, you can seek to understand why, but that does not change the fact that the ぬUniverseጭ did not fight for your souls to beat the odds, it does not change the fact that this person cannot love you.

And you deserve to be loved the way you love others. You deserve someone who celebrates your heart. You deserve someone who wants to hold you up on the worst of days when you cant find the strength to stand on your own two feet. You deserve someone who will laugh at all your horrible jokes, and someone who will let you talk about makeup for an hour straight. You do. 

You do. 
   You do.  
         You do. 
                   You do. 



 I know I have been missing for quite sometime now, and I do apologize as I have been dealing with a very low point in my life. I have currently reached a level of depression I never knew existed (says the person who was born depressed) my life has literally been wake up, distract myself and go back to bed... my head is a dark cave and my emotions are an avalanche dumping and pouring over constantly. I have lost so much recently and people keep leaving my life at such a rapid speed I feel exhausted, So I wrote I wrote for me for you all for whoever needed some push to know that even if it is hard (right now) it will get better, and if you are experiencing grief and loss or just depression in general there is help. 


Take good care, 
Cheers! 

Averi ❤👤


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Sunday, May 29, 2022

Introduction to New Blog

  

☙ I suppose you came here to read my story, but this is a story of not just mine alone. This is a story of all the people who live within me, who make up who I am, who are me. The tiny parts of self that split and into who I am today. Yes the answer is you will read a story however, this story is one that is not for the soft of heart this story is going to make you question your beliefs and identity while exploring the path through a mind altering hallway of hell. 

   Reading my story may not be as easy as picking up any old book and flipping through the pages, but I can promise you that this book will move you in a way that no other book can, will or has. This is a true story, my true story and to I've laid my heart right here on these papers for you to see, not to judge or to feel empathy - but for you to know that even through such terrible, terrible things we can triumph through the mud and just like the lotus grow in muddy waters. You have the strength we all do. It's about opening yourself up to universe to  receive that strength; but you have it. Sometimes we just have to go through some horrible things in life before we can open our souls up to the blessings of the universe and begin to receive the gifts that are meant for us. 

   So if you will, Please just take the time to read this story. The healing that awaits through the pages is just beyond your reach and once read; Stored in your knowledge forever. Take the time to learn more about yourself, others, empathy and growing through what you go through. It is never a bad time to start healing 'Self' and stop worrying about everything else.❧ 

Averi Snell ❦  


www.thebeginningofmybeing@blogspot.com

Saturday, May 7, 2022

Latest Updates

Hello my wonderful readers and welcome [or] welcome back to AveriWithAWord. There have been some major movements in the works these last couple of weeks leading up to this post. We are officially on Instagram [averiwithaword] and we are now on YouTube [AveriWithAWord] which will be more of a podcast platform on which we will discuss issues just like we do here, except a little bit more in 'real time' 

Also I wanted to add, that I have started another blog, however this blog is fully dedicated to a book I am working on, on my life story this is a trauma story in which some viewers may have a hard time reading/digesting; and the content could very well traumatize and or re-traumatize individuals who have experienced the following: Sexual assault, Sex trafficking, Suicide attempts or ideation, Mental or emotional health issues like PTSD, DID ( dissociative identity disorder) or anxiety and stress disorders. However if you are currently healing, have gone through therapy or are going through therapy or have an interest in psychology this would be a great read for emotional healing, educational purposes, and overall furthering your own knowledge on these matters. 

With that being said my blog can be followed at: www.thebeginningofmybeing.blogspot.com

Also I really hope to meet some of you guys via Instagram and YouTube I know it's been a long time coming, and I am truly excited for this movement forward in AveriWithAWord. 


Until next time, take good care of yourselves and each each other! Lots of love. 


Cheers, 

Averi ❤⚘

Saturday, April 30, 2022

~* Exploring the Layers of Our Beings *~

 Hello dear readers, and welcome [or] welcome back to AveriWithAWord. Thanks for continuing to follow, read and devote a little bit of your free time out of your day to come and sit with me. 

      Many of us are drawn to yoga through asana practice [yoga pose known as "corpse pose" at the end, when you just lie there and breathe.], but this is just the beginning of a multi-layered journey....

Just as salt dissolved in water becomes one with it, so the union of Self and Mind is called samadhi.
When the breath becomes exhausted, and mind becomes still, they merge into union called samadhi. 
This equality, this oneness of the two, the living self and the absolute self, when all desires end is called samadhi. 

Hatha Yoga Pradpika 

          The Subtle Layers 

   Many yoga practitioners are drawn to the practice through 
the asanas: the physical postures, of which there are thousands representing all aspects of existence. There is a pose to represent everything, from a boat (Navasana), to a lion (Simbhasana), to enlightened sage (Vasisthasana). These poses and movements help keep the body healthy, as well as unblocking energy channels so that after yoga practice we feel strong, healthy, vibrant, and peaceful. 

  But what actually is happening to make us feel this way? Through asana practice, we fine-tune our awareness of the body and become more aligned and aware of what signals our bodies give us about the overall state of our health. This is the beginning of a process of fine-tuning that starts with the body, and grows ever more subtle through layers of our being -- which perhaps we have yet to realize even exist. 

        The Eight Limbs of Yoga 

Yoga has eight limbs: These limbs evolve in a process of fine-tuning from the grossest levels of our understanding to the most subtle: 

1. Yamas, and 2. Niyamas: these are codes of conduct and qualities of Self-realization which are to be cultivated within the life of a yoga practitioner. By cultivating these principles within our own lives, a shift in consciousness can occur which is then mirrored in our experience of external world. 

3. Asana: typically known as physical practice involving the body. Patanjali defines asana as: a steady, comfortable posture. 

4. Pranayama: defined by Patanjali as regulation and control of the inhalation and exhalation of the breath, creating luminosity and preparing the mind for one-pointed focus (dharana). 

5. Pratyahara: withdrawal of the senses, which results in a calm, non-stimulated mind. 


6 Dharana: focusing the mind on one element or single area (concentration). 


7. Dhyana: an unbroken flow of perception between mind and object in the form of one, continuous thought (meditation). 

8. Samadhi: the knower, knowing, and that which is known become one pure essence/awareness (mystical absorption) - the aim of all yogic practices. 


Five kosas (pronounced Koshas) of our existence *`~

  We will next examine the Kosas, or layers of our existence, and how these eight limbs of yoga Sadhana stated in the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali relate to and weave their way through them. 
According to the Tattiriya Upanisad, there are five layers, sheaths or kosas to our seemingly individual existence. Similar to the eight limbs of Raja Yoga, they range from the densest part of our being (the body), to the most vast and subtle (inner joy/peace). Although presented in a linear fashion here, these layers are interconnected and each subtle layer comprises and encompasses the layers denser than it. In becoming aware of and examining, these aspects of our being through the eight limbs of Raja Yoga, we can help bring our lives into balance and integration on all these levels and eventually transcend them through a deep knowing of them and the rest is in the Self - - the loving awareness and practice which allows it all to be possible.

1. Annamaya-kohsa (food sheath, Earth element) 

Annamaya-Kosa consists of your physical-material body, the grossest, densest part of our existence and it is comprised of, and fueled by , the food we ingest. Annamaya-Kosa is usually the sheath with which we identify the most, because it is through this instrument that we sense and feel and move - it is our field of activity (ksetra). Asana (and pranayama) as well as a healthy diet help to keep this physical layer in optimal condition so that we can experience life through our bodies with ease, free from dis-ease!. 


2. Pranamaya-Kosha (vital sheath, Water element) 

This surrounds and penetrates the physical body as the vital energy which flows around the body. One familiar aspect of Pranamaya-Kosa is influenced and fueled by the prana absorbed through the breath, through food, and from the cosmic Universal life- force that surrounds and permeates us. The practice of pranayama helps to keep this energy flowing freely, which also affects the health of the physical body. 


3. Manomaya-kosha (mental sheath, Fire element)


Even more subtle than the first two koshas, Manomaya-kosa consists of the thinking mind and emotions and permeates the vital and food sheaths. The thoughts and emotions we experience affect the energy flow in and around us, which in turn affect our energetic and physical health. So, by becoming aware of our thoughts, judgements, and emotions as they arise and dissolve through sense-withdrawal (pratyahara) and one-pointed concentration (dharana), giving space to all of our thoughts and emotions without pushing them away and by applying this also in pranayma and asana practice (and also in life!!), we can deeply enhance the overall state of our wellbeing. 



4 Vinanamaya-kosha (intellect/intuitive sheath, Air element)


Permeating the 3 denser layers (manomaya, pranamaya, and annamaya) is the home of our inner knowing and wisdom. It is this aspect of our being which knows Life intimately at the deepest level and from which we receive messages from beyond what we could ever understand, Within this sheath, there is still the illusion of duality, where there is a knower, the knowing, and the known. However, through the process of asana, pranayama, dharana, and then through meditation (dhyana), the mind becomes still and we can truly listen to the silent messages that Life speaks to us through all that exists. 


The second and third sutras in the very first chapter in Patanjali's Raja Yoga Sutras state:

1.2 Yogas Chittavrittinirodha - Yoga is the cessation of the activities and pattering of the mind. 
1.3 Tada drastuhsvarupe'vasthanam - When this happens, the perceiver rests in his/hers/theirs true nature. 

"It is by resting in this true nature, free from the influence of thought, emotion, and experience, that we can listen with an inner hearing that transcends what we do with our ears and hear Life's messages to us"....

It is by resting in this true nature, free from the influence of thought, emotion, and experience, that we can listen with an inner hearing that transcends what we do with our ears and hear Life's messages to us, allowing this message to align itself into our thoughts (manomaya-kosa), our energy field (pranamaya-kosa), into our field of activity, the body (annamaya-kosa), and thus into our actions and experiences. This develops into our svadharma, our deepest purpose or calling in Life


5. Anandamaya-kossa (bliss sheath, ether/space element) 

Beyond the other 4 kosas, and yet permeating and comprising them all, is the sheath of bliss. This is the aspect of our being which we recognize as deep inner peace and joy, free from our thoughts, emotions, energy and body, and yet at the same time embracing them all. It is sweetness of All Life that we feel when the mind is still, also known as sat-cit-ananda- absolute truth- wisdom- bliss. It can be known as a super-conscious state of samadhi, the 8th limb of Raja Yoga, but even in this layer, there remains the duality between a knower of the sweetness and the sweetness itself. 
  These 5 koshas are, as James Reeves so beautifully says in his Koshas Ekhart Yoga series, "the Gateways to the Soul" . In the study of Vedanta (Upanisads), they are also referred to as 'veils' which are created for us to examine, to know and to transcend in order to lead the way back to our true nature - the Self

 The Kosas are intimately related to our states of awareness (waking, dream and sleep) and three bodies (gross, subtle and casual). As we get to know and understand each kosa from the densest to the most subtle, and how much each works within our existence, we can open each Gateway and experience the path we are treading as the road to knowing and being Oneness.


Okay guys I know that was a lot of information to take in, but hear me out. Yoga and mindfulness meditation are associated with improvements in physical and mental health, according to new research published in the journal Frontiers in Human Neuroscience.

The study followed participants in a three-month intensive yoga and meditation retreat. Participants showed improvements in biological markers of stress and inflammation. Participants also reported lower levels of anxiety and depression. 

Participants in the study experienced increases in the so-called cortisol awakening process (CAR). CAR is a measure of how and when the body releases the stress hormone cortisol. This is one way to measure resilience to stress

This strengthens evidence for a link between mental and physical health, suggesting improvements in mental health. 


So is meditating going to take you to another world where you can be a live in a mansion in the middle of nowhere and drive the newest nicest CAR (; yeah that'd be great. However it will help you learn how to cope better with your emotions, it will help you become more aware of your own thought process and most importantly it will help you find your center, where your true Self lives. 



                   Until next time, take good care of yourself & each other 


Namaste,

A🎕❧❦☙❦❦❧❦






Monday, April 18, 2022

Easy-to-Grow Houseplants

   Hello dear readers and welcome or welcome back to AveriWithAWord, today is Easter and if you're celebrating it or if you're like me and a little on the non traditional side maybe you're doing Easter differently; whatever the case may be let today be a day of rest, recovery and relaxation for mind and body. Now with that being said I'd like to share with you all some easy to keep alive plants that you NEED in your home. . . yes, I said need! okay let's get on to those green goddesses. ~ 


    Houseplants That if I can Keep Alive Anyone Can

    Bringing the outdoors in is huge in mental health, and seemingly everyone I know has a huge lush indoor garden full of flourishing houseplants. I, on the other hand, have a trickier relationship with the green things or at least at first I did; I wouldn't call my green thumb emerald though, but it's definitely getting there, and so, gratefully many of my own plants. That's why I reached out to some experts to find out which types of houseplants are easiest to keep alive. We're talking low-maintenance wonders that can stand up to your neglect while bringing a touch of green into your everyday life. Take a look a the list below, then see if any of these gorgeous plants could be a fit in your home.

| Note: Some houseplants are toxic to pets!. You can see which ones are safe using the ASPCA's guide found on their website. |

1. Pothos - 

Also called devil's ivy pothos is a large houseplant of Justin Hancock, a horticulturalist for Costa Farms  (the largest grower of houseplants in the world). It does well in "bright, medium and low light and doesn't mind drying out now and again. Pothos offers heart-shaped leaves often speckled in shades of gold, cream, silver or white depending on the variety. It's a vine, so you can grow it up a pole or [a] trellis, let it trail from a basket or train it horizontally along a mantle." It is also a great choice if you're looking for a plant that can help purify the air in your home. 

2. Spider Plant -

We all had plants growing up, and they're back in a big way. Hancock explains this plant "likes a bright spot best, but does just fine in low and medium light too.. natural or artificial light is just fine as well." You will occasionally need to snip any dead leaves and should keep a regular watering schedule , but "because it has thick, tuberous roots that store moisture, it's not fussy about how often you water it." 

3. Ponytail Palm -

Ponytail Palms are used to dry weather and have a trunk that stores water, explained Hancock. "however, yours will be happiest and grow best if you give it water when the top inch or 2 of the potting mix dries to the touch," he shared. It does best in medium to bright light and "looks ready for a Hawaiian shirt and a margarita next to it."

4.  Chinese Evergreen -

(One of my all time favorites.) Chinese evergreen is a good choice if you don't have a lot of natural light coming into your space. "It's also pretty forgiving when it comes to watering and can go two to three weeks without moisture if it has to, though it grows best when you add water once the top inch or 2 of the potting mix dries," Hancock told us. 

5. ZZ Plant -

The ZZ plant is one you might not have heard of, but it's well-suited to growing indoors. "it has thick, rubbery leaves that might remind you of a palm or fern; many people think they look like plastic. It requires about as much attention as a plastic plant too," shared Hancock. It will grow faster in bright light, but does just fine in areas with low to medium light too. And you only need to water it once a week or so. 

6. English Ivy -

Leslie Fischer, founder of Sustainable Slumber, likes English Ivy "it does not require much sunlight or water, and its trailing leaves are absolutely beautiful. Their value goes beyond the aesthetic; they are actually very powerful air filters. They remove toxic agents from the air like formaldehyde and benzene, among many others," which can make your space literally easier to breathe in. 

7. Barrel Head Cactus -

"Cacti are great for black thumbs; they require very little water and just need some direct, bright light," Meghan MacDonald, owner of plant care and consultation company Penny & the Plants, told us. "The only surefire way to kill a cactus is by overwatering them....my personal favorite is the barrel head cactus."


8. Air  Plants (or tillandsia) -

Air plants are super trendy right now , and it's easy to see why. But they're also surprisingly easy to care for. "They are not planted in soil, as each leaf on an air plant is covered in specialized scales known as trichomes. Trichomes have the ability to absorb water and nutrients just as roots on other plants would from soil," explains Macdonald. Because of this, you can display them in all sorts of fun and exciting ways. They thrive on filtered light and need to be watered once a week by being submerged fully for half and hour, then dried. 


9. Parlor Palm - 

If you're interested in plants that are especially good at filtering air, parlor palms are for you!. "NASA includes this plant in their top 50 list for plants that clean the air," shared Anthony Smith, owner of Nursery Enterprises. "It can handle low light, low humidity, bad air, near freezing temperatures and some neglect," so it's perfect for people who are used to accidentally killing off their beloved plants. 


10. Snake Plant - 

Gardening expert and writer Jane Clarke of Fantastic Services Australia told us, "One of the easiest houseplants to take care of is the snake plant. It is also known as mother-in-law's tongue or sansevieria. It be easy to grow, but that doesn't mean that it is not beautiful, As well as that, it acts as a natural air purifier." They thrive in indirect light, and you should let the soil dry completely between waterings - meanings it's OK if you forget about it from time to time. 


11. Prayer Plant - 

"Another easy-to-grow houseplant is the prayer plant," Clarke shared. "Its name does not correspond to its needs. You won't have to pray in order for it to thrive. Exactly the opposite, actually." Clarke recommends placing your prayer plant with other houseplants, which will help maintain the humid environment it craves. It should be watered every two weeks - if it starts to dry out before then, you can always spritz it with water. 


12. Peace Lily - 

Lester Poole, master gardener at Lowe's,  loves the peace lily. "Although the peace lily may appear high-maintenance with its stylish appearance, it's actually very easy to grow. Great for small spaces like dorms or apartments, spaces with limited windows, the peace lily does well with low light and light flourishes in room temperature," Poole Shared. 

13. Aloe Vera - 

"Aloe vera is easy to care for;" Poole said. "As part of the succulent family, [it] soaks up sunlight but needs little water. As long as you pop your plant into a sunny corner window, you're set to head out for vacation or part ways for a few days without any worries."


14. Cast-iron Plant -

Like it's name, the cast-iron plant is very hardy. "[it] can withstand low light and a wide range of temperatures. This means less worry on changes in temperatures when planted outside and that it's a perfect companion for those with a heavy hand on the thermostat (like myself) when you are growing indoors," shared Poole.


  Bringing something alive and green into your home might seem daunting at first; But with some practice, redirecting negative thoughts, positive self-talk and recognizing these easy-care plants deserve a chance, Once you realize how easy it is, you might find yourself becoming a full-fledged crazy plant person with with a house full of the little green goddesses. Once you start caring for and growing something beautiful it really does help heal those deep, heavy wounds that are hard to talk about and even harder to remember, but when you find yourself becoming a nurturing you, yourself then can start nurturing those scars that no one else can. 
   So please, go on and grow and flourish your indoor [or outdoor] garden, grow those flowers you've loved since you were a child and the scent takes you away to a place far from your worries. Please take this chance to heal the soil within and let your roots absorb the strength it needs, you deserve to grow. ❧

Until next time take good care of yourselves, and each other. As the world around us may be bleak don't allow it to steal your light my beautiful souls you! 

Cheers,

A ❤


 

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